Beautiful Craziness

Doing what seems like a million things a minute can sometimes make a person crazy. Ok, it more than likely makes a person crazy. But does that make it a bad thing? Absolutely not…. depending on what you’re doing. Like, if you and doing drugs or robbing stores and that crazy stuff, yeah it might be considered a ‘bad thing,’ but if you are like me, and just happen to have four, part time jobs on top of classes on top of extra curricular activities, it is more than likely an ok lifestyle. How is it that the most beautiful and precious things in our life drive us the craziest?

My motto has always been, “why stop now?” If I love what I’m doing, why would I stop? But I have often been told by one or… ten or so people, that sometimes you have to take a step back. Let’s just say that doesn’t quite fit into my motto. But alas, there is also a possibility that on an occasion or two they may have been right. I have learned the hard way that doing everything I want, even if I have the best intentions, is not always the most realistic goal. But I cannot say that this realization has done the best job of keeping me from doing any and everything I want.

In high school I was able to get away with doing a zillion and one activities and still be able to give 110% in each one. Don’t ask me how, all  I know is that it took some… well, a lot of late nights and several cups of coffee over the last four years. I told myself, before I came to college, that I couldn’t keep doing this whole ‘running my self dry’ thing. And really, I am not in as many activities as I was in High school. Like maybe one or two less.. I started off the year really good, I was only working one job and had a normal amount of classes and all that jazz, but as the year has gone on I seem to have accumulated quite the schedule. It is not so much of what I am doing, as it is the fact that each activity I do requires a greater percentage of my attention than I am used to. This is not a bad thing. It is reality. Luckily, college is teaching me a lot about reality!

One of the most important things you will learn, as I am still learning, is how to manage your time. Yeah, your academic courses are pretty important. Yeah, it’s good to have a few social skills. Yeah, these things will help you in the future in different areas of your life; But the idea of how to manage your time is pretty darn important. It will help you with your job, with your future husband and children, with your daily/nightly routine, and with all of those things thrown together. Right now, it’s doing a pretty good job of just getting me through the day. Some times I am almost annoyed by how insanely planned out my days are, but then I realize, “oh yeah, if I didn’t do this, I would be a total hot mess!” This little thought seems to make the craziness ok by me.

Not only is this a helpful skill, but it is a hopeful skill! It gives me reassurance that I can do all of the crazy things I love and still be able to keep my sanity. Yes, my life can sometimes be absolute chaos, and guess what? I love it! It is crazy, and beautiful, and mine!


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